So it's a New Year! Looking back at 2008, it is amazing to see what God has done in my and Josh's life.
providing me with the jobs I needed...a new car, just in the nick of time...Josh getting into medical school...moving to Erie...meeting new friends...getting connected with a great church...
But then on the other hand, I look back and I can only see the things God didn't give me yet.
I have so many goals and dreams for my life and they all seem to be on hold right now. I get so mad at God because He doesn't seem to "care"! And then someone steps into my box and says, "wait a minute! What about....?" OHHHH!! He really does care! God must get so frustrated with me. I feel like He's always showing me something to remind me of His supremacy in my life, and I get excited and take two steps forward in my walk with Him. And the next day I take 10 steps backward because I've forgotten already!
So, I guess this new year comes with a challenge for me. I long to be able to put my goals and dreams in God's hands and let Him be the timekeeper. That is truly the hardest thing for me. I cannot seem to trust anyone to do something right, I have to do it myself! And it affects me in so many ways, but especially in my relationship with Christ.
I pray that you'll consider how to strengthen your relationship with Christ this year too. Don't make it a "resolution"! I've given up on those because you get so excited to start and then you fall off the track and don't get back on! Just make a commitment...for your life, not just the year. If you fall behind, you have the rest of your life to catch back up! (hmm....I sure can talk the talk, but Lord, please help me walk the walk!)
Another note...I started reading this blog a few days ago based on Kate's recommendation. I HIGHLY recommend it to you too! You need to start at the beginning of her blog, January 2008, to really understand it and to feel where she's coming from. I must warn you though.....HAVE TISSUES READY!! It is just an amazing journey through a family's trial of life, pregnancy, and life after a death. I am still not the whole way to the present posts because I have to take a break after reading each month's postings. But it is so worth it! Please promise me you'll read it!
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